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I can't believe that 2 years ago I started this blog and I weighed 180 something. I weigh 10 lbs more now and I am even more disgusted. What it the hell is wrong with me? Why is this ok with me that I would let it carry on for 2 years and 2 years before that and 2 more years before that?  WTF!?

I could go on and on about all the things I hate about me. My saggy fat arms. My fat calves and thighs. My triple chins. My fat neck. My fat face. I can honestly say that I never used to be like this and I am ashamed of myself on so many different levels.

Here is me and my 2 older children in February of 2003.

Pre-Fat and Pre 2nd Marriage/